An entire year …

This day last year, was the last time I posted to this blog. Why? I have no idea.. lost my interest & concentrating on other things I suppose.

Well, 2011 was by far the hardest year of my life so far. Sadly a few months into the year my marriage ended. I struggled through the tears, questions, feeling like a failure, trying to remain strong and be a mom at the same time, trying to accept it and understand what was in store for my future. Thoughts and emotions run all over the place when you go through something like this. I mean, we all know someone who’s been divorced and you’re there for them the best you know how. But, until you actually are going through it, it’s impossible to understand the roller coaster of emotions.

I have packed up my life and moved back to my hometown in Colorado. I feel at peace here and comfortable. However, I do wake up every morning, missing my home, my family of 4, being a wife and homemaker, my dear friends that were my rocks during this whole ordeal. It’s hard to adjust to a new life, but there is only one way to go and that’s forward.

2011 wasn’t all bad. I learned to depend on others. I learned that it’s ok to not be strong all the time. My friends threw me an AMAZING 40th birthday party, my best friend flew in to surprise me. I went to the beach, a lot! I got to see that same friend marry the love of her life and stand up next to her at her amazing wedding. I made new amazing friends who I feel like I’ve known my whole life. I became friends again with the man who I had drifted apart from. I drove across the country and didn’t get lost once! Not too shabby of a list considering all things.

I have made only one resolution this year. Which is to just work on me. With this resolution, everything else should fall into place. If I’m better, everything else will be better too. Right?

Among resolutions.. there are goals. Which is to do more running races, learn to crochet, get my kids living the Colorado lifestyle, and tell my parents each dayhow much I appreciate them.

Well my friends, I wish you a wonderful 2012 full of laughter, a few tears to keep it all even and much happiness.

Cheers!